Family Matters

Family Matters

Look at me Adulting..

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I'll let you in on a little secret. Sometimes, (oft times) I get surprised about where I am in life. I can't quite comprehend how I am in my forties given that a moment ago I was in high school. I don't feel like an adult. I can't wrap my head around that I am married, that I've have been left in charge of these humans and are responsible for helping shape and mold their life. Wow. That's heavy. MY CHILD On my life's soundtrack, I can pin point the exact song I was listening to when that "Moment" happened
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Birthdays & The Gift of Friendship

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TAKING THE TIME TO TELL THOSE WHO HAVE GIVEN YOU A GIFT IN LIFE I have been waking up at 4:20am almost every day. Yes I know. The irony of the time isn't lost on me but now its about getting older/sleepless nights than it is celebrating a certain international time of day. It's the quietest time of day and one where I somehow find it easiest to talk to Tracy. I often start my conversations with her with "I miss you. I miss your giggle. I love you. I'm sorry." I think of what I wish I had said
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Come on. Get Happy.

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OUR NEW NORMAL [youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NvgzNEPhYQA] Mom Says: This song has been whirling about in the soundtrack of my brain for so many days now. Is this my subconscious? Or my friend Tracy sending me a message? Come on. Get Happy. It's hard to believe its been 2 months since she passed away. I have learned through this that grief ebbs & flows. I have dealt with loss in the past but never before has it been with that in-your-bones heartache that comes with an unexpected death. I keep holding on to a wish that she will come back. That this somehow has simply been
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Smitten – Crushing on your kid

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Loving your kids is a given. They sit etched in your heart with that deep, beautiful love that will never go away. But I am surprised at times by those moments you realize that you are truly, sincerely falling in love with your kid. Not that parental love but a massive crush. You gaze dreamily at your child as you witness a certain kind of character they are demonstrating. Admiring their virtue and wishing hard that what you see is a little taste of what the future holds, a core value they might hold true for life. A morning last month started off like
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The Grief in Losing a Friend

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Aimlessly I drag myself around the grocery store, lost in a sea of tears. A large gaping hole the size of the moon in place of my stomach, my heart pounding so hard I'm sure any minute its going to break out of my chest. I think I might puke, save for the obscenities I am screaming to every stranger that walks by with a smile. Well, at least I am screaming in my head. This..Is... Grief. Grief like I have never experienced before. Grief that feels so deep, so dark I'm not sure I will come out of it. I lost one
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Parenting Conversations – The Tough Mother

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Also known as CONVERSATIONS I REALLY DON'T WANT TO HAVE... Parenting has been hella hard this week. We're pretty easy going. Our style is to encourage our kids to be respectful, to be generous and to be kind. We talk openly with our kids about periods, penises, and current affairs. If they ask, we shape the parenting conversation as best we can to be straight up but also find examples and understanding that fits for their age. But there have been conversations this week that have completely challenged us as parents. ALL the hard ones rolled up in one frickin frackin day. The
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