We Started Again. In The Middle of Our Lives.
You just gotta believe it will all work out.
We talk a lot about the universe in our world. About it aligning; putting energy into the right place; thinking positive and about trusting the flow of life.
Sure, to some it might seem all a bit Hippity Dippity (as my family/friends have been known to call it).
To me, I can absolutely 100% feel when I am fighting what should be moving along naturally in our life.
I seriously love pushing past my comfort zone. I like taking on challenges.
But trusting and letting go of what should be?
To stop worrying and let things flow to what will?
Mancora was where we randomly saw humpback whales breaching just off the coast
Well, that’s probably one of the biggest challenges of my life.
Being totally open.
Letting things flow.
Goddamn, F#&%ing trust.
Take all of my life’s baggage, issues and protective barriers, bottle it up into one word and throw me the middle finger.
There you have it. That word is trust.
I hate and love it all at the same time.
We have been home for 2 months and I have these panic moments that our trip feels like it’s floating away like a dream.
Before we came home, I cried that we were coming back to Canada.
I wasn’t ready to finish with our travels. Our family was so deeply connected and enjoying every ounce of travelling together. It felt like a special space and one I didn’t want to let go.
Yet we could sense that it was the right time. We had used up the majority of our budget, we were all starting to get tired of laundry and moving every few days and we could all feel an ache to see family & friends. (When the Acropolis came in at #27 of cool things we had done on the trip, we knew we had hit travel weary).
The kids got a chance to reconnect with friends and finish out the school year. It helped with getting ready for the adjustment to a new school, all the requisite kiss-my-ass (did I write that out loud?) IPRC, IEP, transition school meetings were had and we got things tidied up for school plans for the fall.
We came home to living a life of transition. It has felt liberating and like walking a cliff’s edge all at the same time.
We are starting our life again. Finding jobs, a place to live, and creating a plan.
In the past 2 months, I have felt like a rudderless sail, creative inspired, slightly depressed, tearfully grateful, intensely curious, over-stimulated and quiet. The quiet has been good. Taking a step back from the digital space to be fully present with people and nature has been a really healthy choice.
But we still have had those burning questions that have been asked an infinite amount of times since we got back.
“What are you going to do now?”
This is where that damn trust & flow has played a big role in staying the course. We believed, we focused on the positive and we breathed through those moments that in the past would have sent me straight into an anxiety attack.
A lo and behold.
I am happy to share some big news for our family.
Today, Chris is starting a really exciting venture with Union Foods as the Director of Construction & Design. He will be responsible for overseeing the development of the majority of Union Station’s new food ventures with a forward-thinking, innovative company. (This is also the group that owns the ridiculously delicious Union Chicken at Sherway Gardens). If you haven’t gone for brunch and tried their Chicken & Waffles you are missing out. Trust me.
For me, I am reigniting Hart & Galla with some small upcoming events and select social strategy design for companies that fit well with our personal ethos. I am also putting it here for accountability (Gulp!) that I am working on a book proposal about our trip and plan on putting energy into MomDadCuppaKids daily. I am intent on writing more actively on this blog of personal stories, travel tips, world schooling, simplifying your life, event ideas, and special needs dialogue. My hope is to inspire people with a “hey, if we can do it, you can do it” energy and totally open to any ideas you might have.
We still have no permanent fixed address but for now that is fine.
For now, we will just Trust…& Flow.